My Uncle Dave died today after a battle with pancreatic cancer. It was expected but I had hoped that my Aunt would have some more time with him. I don't know what she is going to do. Please lift them in prayer. This is so close to Gramma's death 3 weeks ago.
It just sucks.
So Friday we will travel to Kentucky for his funeral.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Gramma
Gramma died Wednesday October 14, 2009. Her daughters are unbelievable. They were fighting about her things before she even died and then were calling, texting, and leaving me messages ALL day until I turned my phone off that evening. I can't believe how they were totally unconcerned about her when she was alive and then immediately started bickering about her belongings. One of her daughters even got in her car and drove here all the way from Mississippi after she died because she has some old paperwork that said that she was the executor of Gramma's will. But her paperwork is old and she drove here to be executor of nothing because they have nothing! Unbelievable! It absolutely sickens me.
Monday, October 12, 2009
I broke off my relationship with Buck last week. We had been having issues. And then he betrayed me and that was the last shove off the edge for me. I did tell him that he can see Luke whenever he wants, but he's hurt me beyond any love I have/had for him. It's crazy that there is such a fine line between love and hate.
So, I have been raging mad since last week to the point that I think I am going crazy. I'm so glad that I already had an appointment with my new psychiatrist this Wednesday. Because I really think that I am losing my mind. So, yesterday, I went and got a puppy! I guess a puppy will fix anything, right? Maybe I should have just got a dog six years ago instead of Buck? I can't and don't want to get into all the details, but I am so hurt and depressed. I've been here before and it's not pretty.
Here's a photo of Bella...our new puppy in all her cuteness.
She is a Great Dane!!
So, I have been raging mad since last week to the point that I think I am going crazy. I'm so glad that I already had an appointment with my new psychiatrist this Wednesday. Because I really think that I am losing my mind. So, yesterday, I went and got a puppy! I guess a puppy will fix anything, right? Maybe I should have just got a dog six years ago instead of Buck? I can't and don't want to get into all the details, but I am so hurt and depressed. I've been here before and it's not pretty.
Here's a photo of Bella...our new puppy in all her cuteness.
She is a Great Dane!!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
I just don't have time for the nervous breakdown I deserve, so please, don't ask me to stop and think!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Download
Please forgive me if this rambles but I have so much to say and really should be several posts but it's easier just to spill it all in one.
My brother's girlfriend....where to start there? As I stated before, she is pregnant. And she continues to be the thorn in everyone's side that will just not go away. So, this past week there was the whole Facebook fiasco where we were posting nastiness to each other but separate. Then my sister got in on that cause...well..that's my sister and his girlfriend is just a bitch. So the dilemma stands that no one can stand her and she is pregnant with my brother's baby..my niece or nephew. Please God, let it be a boy. (Whole other post as well)
There are issues with Dustin that I don't even think I am fully aware of yet. A few weeks ago, I found this whole plan he had wrote down on how he was going to run away. I freaked out of course, we eventually talked it out and then he went with his Dad and had more issues there and I had to go wick him up. Now, the other day after school, he had a lighter that he says his friend just came up and gave to him.... No reason,just came up and gave it to him. Well, I'm not stupid and I know that these things do not just happen like that and the kids with lighters are either smoking or setting fires, so why does Dustin want it, why did this kid give it to him, where did it come from since it id not just a cheap Bic lighter, this was an engraved Zippo lighter. And Dustin tells me he just wants it cause he thinks they are cool. I am just not buying into that. So why?? Of course, I spoke to the ex about it and as usual, he thinks I am over reacting to this. He never seems to find a problem with things the kids are doing.
I feel overwhelmed completely. I have to figure out how to be around my brother's girlfriend and not wring her neck or express my disgust for her aloud. I was told to believe that she is invisible, but somehow, I just don't think that is gonna happen.
And, what the heck is going on with my kid? I am trying to figure it out. I talk to him and he actually talks to me. Is this just having a teenager? I don't know.
Oh, and my relationship with Buck....I'll have to post on that later.
My brother's girlfriend....where to start there? As I stated before, she is pregnant. And she continues to be the thorn in everyone's side that will just not go away. So, this past week there was the whole Facebook fiasco where we were posting nastiness to each other but separate. Then my sister got in on that cause...well..that's my sister and his girlfriend is just a bitch. So the dilemma stands that no one can stand her and she is pregnant with my brother's baby..my niece or nephew. Please God, let it be a boy. (Whole other post as well)
There are issues with Dustin that I don't even think I am fully aware of yet. A few weeks ago, I found this whole plan he had wrote down on how he was going to run away. I freaked out of course, we eventually talked it out and then he went with his Dad and had more issues there and I had to go wick him up. Now, the other day after school, he had a lighter that he says his friend just came up and gave to him.... No reason,just came up and gave it to him. Well, I'm not stupid and I know that these things do not just happen like that and the kids with lighters are either smoking or setting fires, so why does Dustin want it, why did this kid give it to him, where did it come from since it id not just a cheap Bic lighter, this was an engraved Zippo lighter. And Dustin tells me he just wants it cause he thinks they are cool. I am just not buying into that. So why?? Of course, I spoke to the ex about it and as usual, he thinks I am over reacting to this. He never seems to find a problem with things the kids are doing.
I feel overwhelmed completely. I have to figure out how to be around my brother's girlfriend and not wring her neck or express my disgust for her aloud. I was told to believe that she is invisible, but somehow, I just don't think that is gonna happen.
And, what the heck is going on with my kid? I am trying to figure it out. I talk to him and he actually talks to me. Is this just having a teenager? I don't know.
Oh, and my relationship with Buck....I'll have to post on that later.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Makeover
So...
My old friend came over last night. I have not seen her for 14 years.
She gave me a makeover. Dyed and cut my hair, did my makeup everything.
I like the hair color, but still can't decide if I like the cut and style. I guess I will try it, but I just don't know.
Here is before and after pics.
Before
After
What do you think?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
99 Things
THE 99 THINGS MEME
1. Started your own blog. Hmmmm...
2. Slept under the stars. Yes
3. Played in a band. No
4. Visited Hawaii. Not yet
5. Watched a meteor shower. No
6. Given more than you can afford to charity. No not more than I could afford at the time
7. Been to Disneyland/world. No
8. Climbed a mountain. Yes
9. Held a praying mantis. No, but I freaked out cause there was one on my porch one day!
10. Sang a solo. Only when alone in my car. Trust me, it’s better that way.
11. Bungee jumped. Can not say that I have or that I plan to.
12. Visited Paris. Not yetbut I would love to some day.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. No but I bet it would be beautiful to watch not get caught in.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch. Sewing
15. Adopted a child. No
16. Had food poisoning. Oh, yes.
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. I have never been to the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables. Yes, and it’s something I would love to do again. Nothing more exciting than picking your own green beans and going inside to cook them up with some potatoes...
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France. No
20. Slept on an overnight train. No
21. Had a pillow fight. Are there people who haven’t had pillow fights?
22. Hitch hiked. Nope
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill. I'm sure that has happened a time or two.
24. Built a snow fort. No
25. Held a lamb. No
26. Gone skinny dipping. Hmmmm...
27. Run a marathon. Uh...no
28. Ridden a gondola in Venice. No
29. Seen a total eclipse. A couple
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. I have seen both. I prefer sunset
31. Hit a home run. No. I am the least sportsy girl ever
32. Been on a cruise. Nope.
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person. No
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors. Kentucky all the time
35. Seen an Amish community. Only on tv
36. Taught yourself a new language. No
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied. I wonder if I will ever achieve that
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person. No.
39. Gone rock climbing. No, again, not sportsy
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person. I don't think so unless they had it at the Art Institute in Chicago when we went there
41. Sung Karaoke. I have and quite poorly I will admit
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt. No but I think it would be cool
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. Yes,paid for someone's coffee, filled random parking meters, and every Christmas we pay for the person behind us at least once andtell the cashier to tell them Merry Christmas (the best feeling)
44. Visited Africa. No, but I’d like to. I would love to see wildlife up close and personal...
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight. Yes.
46. Been transported in an ambulance. Yes, when Dustin fell on his bike, I rode with him to the ER
47. Had your portrait painted. No
48. Gone deep sea fishing. No
49. Seen the Sistine chapel in person. No
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. No
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling. No.
52. Kissed in the rain. Yes
53. Played in the mud. Yeah.
54. Gone to a drive-in theater. Yes! More than once. I wish there were still one around here so I could take my boys
55. Been in a movie. No unless home movies count
56. Visited the Great Wall of China. No
57. Started a business. Yes.
58. Taken a martial arts class No
59. Visited Russia. No.]
60. Served at a soup kitchen. Ihave and it isa very humbling experience. It made me cry.
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies. No
62. Gone whale watching. No
63. Gotten flowers for no reason. Yes, because I have a sweet guy!
64. Donated blood. I have several times
65. Gone sky diving. No and I don't have plans to.
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp. No.
67. Bounced a check. Unfortunately, yes.
68. Flown in a helicopter. No
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy. I have got some from my MaMaw
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. No
71. Eaten Caviar. Never!
72. Pieced a quilt. One or two.
73. Stood in Times Square. No
74. Toured the Everglades.Yes
75. Been fired from a job. No.
76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London. Yes.
77. Broken a bone. No
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. No
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person. No
80. Published a book. No.
81. Visited the Vatican. No
82. Bought a brand new car. No
83. Walked in Jerusalem. No, but I’d really like to some day.
84. Had your picture in the newspaper. No
85. Read the entire Bible. I have
86. Visited the White House. No.
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. No.
88. Had chickenpox.Yes
89. Saved someone’s life.Not that I’m aware of.
90. Sat on a jury. No
91. Met someone famous. Not that I can remember
92. Joined a book club. No but I read Oprah's book club picks
93. Lost a loved one. Several
94. Had a baby. Three boys
95. Seen the Alamo in person. No
96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake. No.
97. Been involved in a law suit. Yes.
98. Owned a cell phone. One or two.
99. Been stung by a bee. Bees, wasps, yellow jackets, fire ants, you name it
So, there ya go. 99 things about me.
I guess I am kinda boring.
Who’s next?
1. Started your own blog. Hmmmm...
2. Slept under the stars. Yes
3. Played in a band. No
4. Visited Hawaii. Not yet
5. Watched a meteor shower. No
6. Given more than you can afford to charity. No not more than I could afford at the time
7. Been to Disneyland/world. No
8. Climbed a mountain. Yes
9. Held a praying mantis. No, but I freaked out cause there was one on my porch one day!
10. Sang a solo. Only when alone in my car. Trust me, it’s better that way.
11. Bungee jumped. Can not say that I have or that I plan to.
12. Visited Paris. Not yetbut I would love to some day.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. No but I bet it would be beautiful to watch not get caught in.
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch. Sewing
15. Adopted a child. No
16. Had food poisoning. Oh, yes.
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. I have never been to the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables. Yes, and it’s something I would love to do again. Nothing more exciting than picking your own green beans and going inside to cook them up with some potatoes...
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France. No
20. Slept on an overnight train. No
21. Had a pillow fight. Are there people who haven’t had pillow fights?
22. Hitch hiked. Nope
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill. I'm sure that has happened a time or two.
24. Built a snow fort. No
25. Held a lamb. No
26. Gone skinny dipping. Hmmmm...
27. Run a marathon. Uh...no
28. Ridden a gondola in Venice. No
29. Seen a total eclipse. A couple
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. I have seen both. I prefer sunset
31. Hit a home run. No. I am the least sportsy girl ever
32. Been on a cruise. Nope.
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person. No
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors. Kentucky all the time
35. Seen an Amish community. Only on tv
36. Taught yourself a new language. No
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied. I wonder if I will ever achieve that
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person. No.
39. Gone rock climbing. No, again, not sportsy
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person. I don't think so unless they had it at the Art Institute in Chicago when we went there
41. Sung Karaoke. I have and quite poorly I will admit
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt. No but I think it would be cool
43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. Yes,paid for someone's coffee, filled random parking meters, and every Christmas we pay for the person behind us at least once andtell the cashier to tell them Merry Christmas (the best feeling)
44. Visited Africa. No, but I’d like to. I would love to see wildlife up close and personal...
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight. Yes.
46. Been transported in an ambulance. Yes, when Dustin fell on his bike, I rode with him to the ER
47. Had your portrait painted. No
48. Gone deep sea fishing. No
49. Seen the Sistine chapel in person. No
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris. No
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling. No.
52. Kissed in the rain. Yes
53. Played in the mud. Yeah.
54. Gone to a drive-in theater. Yes! More than once. I wish there were still one around here so I could take my boys
55. Been in a movie. No unless home movies count
56. Visited the Great Wall of China. No
57. Started a business. Yes.
58. Taken a martial arts class No
59. Visited Russia. No.]
60. Served at a soup kitchen. Ihave and it isa very humbling experience. It made me cry.
61. Sold Girl Scout cookies. No
62. Gone whale watching. No
63. Gotten flowers for no reason. Yes, because I have a sweet guy!
64. Donated blood. I have several times
65. Gone sky diving. No and I don't have plans to.
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp. No.
67. Bounced a check. Unfortunately, yes.
68. Flown in a helicopter. No
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy. I have got some from my MaMaw
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial. No
71. Eaten Caviar. Never!
72. Pieced a quilt. One or two.
73. Stood in Times Square. No
74. Toured the Everglades.Yes
75. Been fired from a job. No.
76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London. Yes.
77. Broken a bone. No
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. No
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person. No
80. Published a book. No.
81. Visited the Vatican. No
82. Bought a brand new car. No
83. Walked in Jerusalem. No, but I’d really like to some day.
84. Had your picture in the newspaper. No
85. Read the entire Bible. I have
86. Visited the White House. No.
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. No.
88. Had chickenpox.Yes
89. Saved someone’s life.Not that I’m aware of.
90. Sat on a jury. No
91. Met someone famous. Not that I can remember
92. Joined a book club. No but I read Oprah's book club picks
93. Lost a loved one. Several
94. Had a baby. Three boys
95. Seen the Alamo in person. No
96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake. No.
97. Been involved in a law suit. Yes.
98. Owned a cell phone. One or two.
99. Been stung by a bee. Bees, wasps, yellow jackets, fire ants, you name it
So, there ya go. 99 things about me.
I guess I am kinda boring.
Who’s next?
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