Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
We have seen kids laying around on the couches waiting to be seen by the doctors. We have seen kids sick to their stomach from the chemo that is supposed to make them well. We see all the children without any hair from their chemo. And then there is Myles... The surgery took away his cancer and thankfully he did not need any further intervention. I try to remind myself how blessed we have been. It has been over two years now with no reoccurrance, but at every appointment, I always am holding my breath until his doctor says that there is nothing else that they see in the scans. I have to put on the brave, not worried face for Myles, but in my heart and in my head, I am worried sick that they will find it again.
What if it comes back? What if just surgery is not the answer if it came back? What if he did need chemo or radiation? What would we do? What would happen? Would he be ok if it came back again? Why is it that there are so many really sick kids there and my child was spared? I'm thankful that my child is not one of the really sick kids there but he could have been and that feeling literally makes me sick to my stomach.
I don't know how long that feeling is going to last. I had thought that with every passing appointment I would worry about it less and it is no big deal, just a check up. But I still worry that it will come back. I still worry that he will be sick. I hope those feelings will pass as time goes by but for now, I hold my breath until we leave the appointment with a good report.
I will update tomorrow.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
In this next photo he was about 10 months old. I don't know where the time has went. This seems like just yesterday.
This was taken when Myles was about 18 months old. He has always been a happy kid. I can only hope that remains as he gets older into near teenage years.
I promise this is the last one for this post. This photo was taken last year of the two of us together. I have very few photos of me and the kids together. I am usually the one behind the camera taking the photos.
So today my baby Myles is 10 years old.
Monday, December 1, 2008
On another note, Myles has his check up in Chicago this Friday and as always, I am obsessing about it. I always worry that they are going to tell me that they see something else. His check ups have been good for two years now but I still worry. I guess I will always worry about it.