Just irritated

Really, irritated is about the best way I can explain my feelings of the day, well, the week. I have been helping Buck to search for someone online that he really should try to contact. Anyway, we did the reunion.com thing, we did the classmates.com thing, and he even paid for a people search that actually produced a lot of information about this person. Addresses, phone numbers, relatives and their addresses and phone numbers, a mountain of information. So, we know where this person lives. But, he still keeps trying to locate her online, like through Facebook, or Reunion, or Classmates, and then gets his pants in a bunch when I try to tell him something different. It is just really irritating for me, because if you are asking for my help, then let me help you. Or are you just asking for my help so that you can be crabby with me about it when you do not find what you are looking for. All this information is very relevant to him. And important, but we have had the people search for 2 years now and he has not once tried to make contact through the information that we do have. And, then he's crabby with me about it! Hey man, I did not do anything wrong. If you had done what you should have to begin with you would not be looking for her now. And when you do find her, I suspect that you are not going to be happy with the results from that either way either. So, how is any of this supposed to be helping? I don't know. I just had enough for today.

Feeling homesick

I have been thinking about my Ma-maw a lot lately. I talk to her everyday, but I just miss her so badly. Last February when the whole family went down there for her surprise birthday party was the last time that I saw her. I guess you could say that I am feeling homesick. And right now, there is no possible way that I can make a trip down there with the kids school schedule and my own. I can't afford to take time off work right now either. She just has not been able to come here. I don't know if she will ever be able to drive here alone again. I always fear that something is going to happen to her before I see her again. When I see her and it is time to leave, I always cry thinking that this may be the last time that I am with her. I wish that I lived closer to her. I wish that I could visit more often. Maybe I will be able to arrange something for when the boys are on spring break from school. Until I figure something out, I guess I just have to be happy with talking to her on the phone everyday. Sometimes, that just does not seem to be enough. I miss her so much.

My kids are getting older, where did the time go?

I have been busy with this new class. I am trying to make the proper arrangements so that Luke will be ready for Kindergarten in the fall, this entails changing daycare for him. I am not too happy about having to change daycare since he has been at this current daycare since he was 2 years old, but I have no choice because the current daycare is in a different county than where I live and he will be going to school. But, it looks like he will be changing daycare at the beginning of August to get used to the new daycare and then be starting school at the end of August. My baby is growing up. :( But I knew this was coming. It will be a big change for us, because right now, we spend a lot of time at Buck's house, but we will no longer be doing that when school starts.
Dustin keeps finding more and more reasons that he wants to stay at his Dad's house when he is supposed to be going with me. It hurts my feelings, but he is growing up too. He will be 13 next month and I have become less important to him. He would rather be with his friends. I know that this happens, but I just don't know how to accept it in my heart. When I look at him, I still see the baby that he once was. But that time has passed.
Myles, Luke and I had a good time last weekend. And I do have to say that there was less fighting. Myles was clingy, which makes me wonder what is going on with him. He does not say much, but gets clingy when things are on his mind. I try to get him to talk to me, but I guess at 10 years old, it's hard to communicate how you are feeling or if you have something on your mind.
Until next time...

Frigid weather, go away!

It is frigid here. -6 was the high here today, with wind chills down to -30! That is just insane! We are used to cold, windy winters, but the Canadian air that we have been getting, we just are not used to. I don't know how Canadians make it through the winter. It is freezing. I have not been able to get warm all day, even after being inside all evening with an electric blanket and the cat all cozy on my lap.
My boss from the auto yard called me this evening. He wants me to come in early so that we can get out of there early. His mother died. I did not know what to say. I feel bad because I did not ask if she had been sick, I did not ask where they were going to have services, I just was at a loss for words. This particular boss has been and continues to be extremely difficult to work for. It is just naturally his personality to be a real jerk. But I felt so bad for him. I could tell that he was really broken up about it.
Dustin has strep throat again. I guess he is getting started early this year. I swear I think that he had strep throat off and on all last winter. Myles and Luke do not have it, but I am waiting for that to drop in my lap next.
On a lighter note, I think I might take the kids to the movies this weekend. That movie "Hotel for Dogs" comes out in theatres tomorrow and it looks so cute. I think that they would like to see it. I would like to see it.

Advice anyone?

I am having trouble with my kids fighting. I do not know what to do. It seems that I am always yelling at them and getting after them for arguing. They are at each other's throats every time I turn around. I don't want to spend my time with them yelling at them, but I can not stand to listen to them bickering and fighting literally every minute that they are together. I have tried several ways to deal with this, from just letting them figure it out (which mostly turns out to be physical between them and I have to intervene anyway), yelling at them, punishing them, giving them extra chores to do, taking privileges from them and nothing really seems to help with the situation. I really hope that this is just not how it is going to be until they are grown up. I don't think that we all would survive if that were the case. I am just out of ideas and a bit discouraged because of it. I want to enjoy my time with them. I want them to enjoy being with me, but with all the yelling, them at each other and then me at them, it's not the environment that I want for us. Anyone, any suggestions? I'm going crazy here quite literally.

Travolta tragedy

I am irritated with the media about the Travolta tragedy. I mean seriously, they just lost their son and every time you turn on the television, there it is about their loss. I really feel that the media should be letting them grieve and not be trying to speculate about his death or his health conditions before his death or their Scientology beliefs. It just is such a difficult time for them right now and I don't think that it should be displayed all over every TV station, news report, magazine and tabloid. It's sad that they lost their son and although some people will say that they put themselves out there to the public and they just have to deal with it, I think that is wrong. They are parents above all else.

Just hello

I started new classes yesterday working toward my bachelor degree in accounting. These classes are set up a little different than I am used to, but I'm sure I will get the hang of it. There is a lot of reading to do so I'm not sure how much I will be online. But, I always say that and then I am blogging anyway. I have new photos to upload from the holidays, I will try to get that done later tonight. Hope that everyone is well and off to a great 2009.
Until next time.

Antigone's Baby

Antigone had her baby! A 6 pound 11 ounce baby boy. A happy ending for her finally. I'm so happy for her. Could you please stop over there to give her well wishes and welcomes for her baby boy. It's a happy day.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone. I hope that this year brings much joy for everyone. I am looking forward to new beginnings this year in many ways. School, my children, my significant other, my employment, and much more. I hope that everyone had a great New Year's Eve. I spent the evening with my family at my parent's house. It was an interesting evening, but fun nonetheless.