Thursday, September 25, 2008

Just depressed today

Ever feel like you just want to go back to bed and stay there for, um, like a week? That's how I am feeling this morning. Nothing is going right this morning. I am worried about bills as usual. It just sucks. I hate the fact that I do not have a better job. And although I will be finished with my associates degree in December, well, that does not guarantee that I will be able to find a job then. And if I do not find a better job by then, I don't know what I am going to do. Luke's birthday is next month, Myles's birthday is at the beginning of December, Christmas, and then Dustin's birthday in February. I just don't know how I am going to do that this year. I guess I am just stressing today. I always worry about money, but this is just getting ridiculous. Or maybe I am just letting it get the best of me today. But, really, I just want to go back to bed.

4 comments:

Karyn "kd" said...

Hang in there Bonny
Good things are waiting for you after your hard work.. It WILL be worth it..
God will get you thru.. and he will again as he has before..
And you're field is really good..
Just think of all the cooked books and beans that have to be recounted by Honest folks like yourself..

My dear friend is alot like you.. same boat. She fought her way thru school and is making over $55,000 a yr. now.. Went from welfare help when pregnant to a great job.. And she has her degree in acct. She found better paying and more responsible jobs after she got her assoc. hrs. and then they hired her cause they knew she was driven to finish.. and they needed that in a new hire.. Keep the faith..:D

April- Strong and True said...

Girl, I know your pain. Living on $1000 when your raising two kids at home and rent is 750! Hang in there and just know you are doing YOUR best for YOUR kids! It is always tough and this economy isn't any better either. Doesn't help things much. It is ok to feel that way, just don't get stuck girl! Things DO get better, especially when you least expect it!

::hugs::

Bonny said...

Thanks Karyn. I am hoping that is what will happen. I'm searching for the "golden ticket" at the end of this journey, so to say. I just sometimes wonder if it is really there. I hope so. But I have made up my mind to start looking now to see what is out there. It's really hard with being a stay at home mom for so long, no one wants to hire you. It stinks.

Bonny said...

Thanks April. It is hard. And the economy sucks right now, so it just makes me wonder even more about finding a 'good' job, even with the degree. I'm waiting for it to get better. Thanks again.